|Love yourself first and the rest shall come|
I mean I am a people pleaser. It's what I do. It doesn't bother me at all to do for others, I actually really enjoy it, but does it make me appear weak? I try not to be mean, I can't hurt intentionally, I want to see someone smile and know in my heart that something I did is the reason for that smile. If someone I love wants something I will do just about anything to provide it to them. It's part of my make-up BUT now that I have been spending so much time self-reflecting and trying to self improve me, I have sort of changed how I want to be in any future relationships.
I have a love of life like no other, I am all about fun, I am flexible, I love the gym, I love my friends, I love my family. In a perfect world any man I "should" be with would want to do these things with me. Instead of making his life everything, a happy balance between our two lives is ideal.
I spend hours at the gym every day, I am attending church regularly, spending time with my friends and family and I am having the time of my life. The people that I have surrounded myself with have been there for me when I needed them, when I needed a push or a kind word or a simple hug. I have spent 2 years trying to be the person I want to be, the person my friends/family are proud of, the person I am proud of.
|BFF Teri and I|
"Trish Birch here is what I see.... I see a woman who went through some tough times but, didn't let the world keep her down. I see a strong independent woman who doesn't rely on someone else to support her or make her happy. I see a woman who is healthy and happy. I see a woman who loves her family and enjoys life. I see a fighter....If my 7 daughters learned just 1 or 2 of the things I see in you, they would be successful women themselves." I can literally never express how her words felt to me. How they made me cry and feel so proud. I was and have become a person to be proud of and that made me extremely happy.
I know I am doing life right, I know my sons love me and believe I truly hung the moon, I know that I am strong, I treat others with respect and kindness, I know I have so much to offer a man, and I know that one day a man "WORTHY" of me will come along. Until then I will continue to be me and live my life to the fullest. I am the best version of me I can be today, tomorrow is a new day...my cup runith over.
|Making memories with friends makes me happy|