Thursday, August 17, 2017

He's a gift

Since my divorce I met what I thought was the love of my life, I met some nice guys, I met some total dicks, and of course, I met men who only want a bootie call.   One nice thing is that for the most part I have remained friends with many of them, four in particular mean the world to me and I can't imagine my life without them. 

Seems my blog  Tin Man is still holding.  I hate that I can't get past this impossible scenario.  I try so hard to forget, to not think, to not feel, but my friend Face says it's who I am, I care, I have a heart. It's true I do, I care, I want the fairytale.  I want someone to sweep me off my feet, to love me unconditionally, to tell me I am beautiful, to hold me at night and want nothing more than I have to give.

I am 47 years old and there has only been one man in my entire life that made me feel like I was the only person in the room.  It's such an amazing feeling, my god it's indescribable.  When I'm by his side I feel like we are the only two people in the world.  I think about all the fun times we have had, all the cool things we have shared and it literally makes me smile and I look forward to our next adventure.  I am 100% happy just knowing I am going to see him, spend time with him, and get to feel like a queen even though for him he is just being him.  The glory of him is that he doesn't even realize what he is doing that makes me so happy.   

All I need in my life to be totally happy, truly satisfied is to meet a man who makes me feel the way he does but a man who I also make feel the same.  I am sort of closer to being at peace knowing that man doesn't exist for me, but I have lived because I do know how it feels and I won't settle for anything less. 

Wednesday, August 16, 2017


OMG!  I mean what else can you say about Belize.............

It's the most beautiful place I have ever seen.  We snorkeled, we swam in the wide open ocean with Sharks swarming us so close we touched them, we speared/ate lobster, we went fishing on a charter boat, we ate the best food I've ever had, we toured and climbed the Mayan ruins, we went to two private beaches, I mean we were there for 10 days and there is nothing we didn't do.  I am a very lucky person that is finally living life.

This is the view standing at the door of the house I stayed

This was our ride the day we speared lobster, fished and swam with the sharks.  We are parked eating the food we caught on a private beach just the 4 of us and the two boat guys that are cooking our food.

View from back door

First day standing at the end of the dock

Evening view from house

Another view from the house

This place is called private beach

Monkey just came down to the boat to get a snack from our hands

Climbing it was tough and it was hot as you know what


The day I got back from Belize I took Boogie overnight.  He is such a great kid, I missed him so much.  I have been gone more this summer than I ever have so I needed some quality Boogie time.  I love the orange hat I got for him in Belize, its perfect just like he is.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Simple fun turns bad

When I took these photos, I didn't think the blog entry associated with them would be anything but good fun and happy thoughts.  Logan and I have had our Florida trip scheduled for at least 6 months and had a house in Cape Coral.  I decided that since we were going to Florida we needed to go see Mr. Paul and his mom Mickey.  We drove to Mickey's Friday and hung out, went to Ron Johns, went to dinner and then Saturday we went to the beach before Logan and I headed back home. 

Mr. Paul and Logan were body surfing and Mr. Paul collided with a young boy.  We didn't think much about it, we finished our day at the beach and then went back to Mickey's to shower and pack.  Mr. Paul was complaining of a severe headache and his neck hurt he said it must have been from the collision. 

Sunday Mr. Paul called me and he said he had slept 18 hours, his neck hurt and his head still hurt.  Monday he called me at work crying saying he had a brain bleed and they were flying him to the hospital.  I was in full blown panic, I tried to call everyone I knew in Florida.  Eventually we reached the right people and everyone there headed to the hospital.

Mr. Paul ended up having surgery but is recovering so far with no complications.  Thank God he has Mickey to care for him and ensure he is provided for.  Please continue to pray for him. Like I have always said there is nothing in the world more important than family.

Only Logan climbs a tree while mini golfing

Getting ready to fly back home

Logan is always a kidder, wonder where he gets it??

Hey what is Mr. Paul looking at????

Father and son

Hey ya'll we are mini golfing

Mr. Paul, Logan and I
Mom you are so stupid

Duck lips and OMG MOM

Grinning from ear to ear

Ok lets do one serious one

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Father son bonding time

I forgot to post these pictures from Mr. Paul's trip to Maryland a few weeks ago.  I bought these great seats to the National's game for them to go and have some father/son bonding time.  Although the National's lost, it was a win for my family.  Logan was very happy to spend time with Mr. Paul and I was very glad that they got to spend some time together, it's been hard on Logan not being around his dad.  #familyisfamilyevenwhendivorced.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Florida vacation

Logan and my Florida vacation has finally arrived.  We landed early Saturday morning, and drove our rental car directly to Merritt Island to visit with Mr. Paul and his mom.  It's been way to long since we've seen Mickey.  She was so happy to see us, we spent several hours with her and then Mr. Paul, Logan and I went to lunch. 

Logan and I headed to Cape Corral our final destination.  We have a beautiful house here with a pool for a week and lord did we ever need this relaxation.  There is a margarita machine that I well I use it several times a day and have really had a great time so far.  We went to Fort Meyers Beach yesterday and today I think a little site seeing.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Hank Williams Jr Concert

Ed, Misty, Colton, Jedi and I all went to the Hank Williams Jr Concert on Saturday June 17, 2017.  What can I say but as usual it was amazing.
Selfie failure

The gang

I don't know................

Give me some Hank

Ed and Colton


My girl Misty

Gross whose hat is that???

Who knows what I was doing and I don't know any of those people

Being silly in the car