Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Check oysters off the bucket list...

I am 46 and have never eaten seafood, I refused, I wasn't interested, it smells and I just didn't want too.  Since dating Brian, I have began eating it.  I've had scallops which were fine but not anything I would want again.  They really had no flavor to me.  We ordered shrimp after the warrior dash and that was all we ordered and I had my share of them, they were delicious and I will eat them again.  We  are always ordering which is now my favorite, Rock fish bites, which I truly love.  Yesterday we went to the lighthouse as usual but it was for a friends birthday and we decided to order raw oysters.  I was reluctant, I am not going to lie, but they squeezed some lemon on it and some sauce and I went for it.  The first one I let slide down my throat with ease, it didn't taste like anything at all, the second and third I chewed and honestly they had a good taste and I enjoyed them.  I can now add that to my list of things I've tried and liked and will have again.

Virginia Beach - Memorial Day 2016

Brian, Molly, Kevin, Logan and I went camping at Virginia Beach, VA for the weekend.  Man what a great time.  Our friends Alan and Anne came and camped right next to us.  We laid at the beach all day, went to the pool in the early evenings, rode the golf cart around, played corn hole, played pie face (LOL) and just laughed and laughed.  My new life is so wonderful, it seems like it's one perfect adventure after another.  I live for today but also am so excited about tomorrow. 

Brian, Kevin and I left on Thursday - here are some pictures of us leaving with the camper, excited about our long holiday weekend.

Logan and Molly

                                                                        Me and Logan
                                                                Me and Brian
                                                                Brian and I

                                                              Kevin, me and Brian
Logan is surfing on the beach, isn't he good???
  The flowers Brian had delivered to me at the camp site. 1st flowers!!!  He's amazing.
                                                     Sleeping really?  But your not spilling your beer??
                                                             Logan and Molly
                                                                         Brian and Allan
                                                              Logan playing corn hole with the Master (Brian)
                                                            Kevin and Logan
                                                             Logan and I
One of my favorite pictures of us. 

                                                                    Me and Brian
                                         Logan and Brian playing tag at the park - Typical boys
                                                               AWW the family dinner
                                                      Kevin, Molly and Brian

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Beach bums

Brian, Emma (Brian's sister in law), Alan (Brian's good friend) and I went out on Alan's boat for the day.  We went to Battle Creek (a beach in Solomon's island, MD) and played corn hole, and we drove the boat to Seabreeze (tiki bar) and had an appetizer and some drinks, then we just cruised around on the boat. 
I decided that hey if we were going to be on the boat and it was a nice enough day we might as well go swimming.  Yeah well I was the only one who would brave the cold water and did I mention no one to include me had swim suits??  I dove straight in, "some" clothes and all.  Oh and I did it several times.  Not bad until I realized that I was wearing my fitbit, that was a bummer but overall, no regrets.  Another fun packed day with good friends, which just makes me really look forward to the upcoming summer.  Nothing but fun, beer, old and new friends but most importantly making memories.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Warrior Dash - 2016

Brian and I participated in the 2016 Warrior Dash man was it fun.  Nothing like a day in the mud with a great guy.  There were 12 total obstacles, 3.6 miles (5K) and beer waiting at the end.  It was a lot harder than I expected it to be, but it was a total blast.  Next year I plan to get a group of us doing it.


Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Dating SUCKS.....

My 40's haven't been what I thought they would be for sure.  Funny thing is the one thing I have learned is that you can think you want something and pray for it, and when you don't get it, you can be mad, you can cry, you can blame God, but more often than not, you end up with something so much better that you can't remember why you wanted the other thing to begin with.

Last year when Mr. Paul left I spent probably 5 months crying, drinking and feeling like my life was over.  I prayed we would be together again, be happy, be that couple we initially were but in the end, that is never going to happen.  Now I realize that I wasn't happy either and that he did me a favor for sure.   

I started really dating in January of this year.  My first real dating was with a guy I'll call him Jeff.  I actually started talking to Jeff in October 2015, but then when Mr. Paul came back I stopped talking to him, but when Mr. Paul left again, I texted Jeff and we started talking all over again.  He was nice, funny, good looking, he made me laugh, he had the most amazing childlike imagination and he had a great job.  I spoke to him mainly via text/email and sometimes the phone (he said because of his job) and we went out to dinner 3 times.  That seems normal right?  If having dinner 3 times in 7 months is normal than I suppose so.  We would go weeks and one time several months without speaking or hearing from each other.  That’s not dating in my book, it’s more like catching up with a complete stranger.  Each time you see them, you’re basically starting over again.  I'm not sure why the dates were so sporadic but in the end, I feel like I met a nice guy, whom I wouldn't mind catching up with time to time.  I don't regret meeting him at all, but I think I will probably always wonder why he was so totally distant.  He always said he worked a lot, but seriously who doesn't have time to send a text or an email?

Then there was the guy I'll call him Robb.  He was great.  He was HOT, a great dad, a super hard worker, he was super affectionate, had the most amazing way of making me feel special, he looked at me in a way no man had ever looked at me, he was nice, he had the most amazing head of hair, and funny.  He had recently also been dogged by a person he loved.  He was scared by her memory, and wasn't interested in getting into another relationship.  We discussed this in the very beginning and we were both on the same page, or so I thought...  Things with us started fine, no issues, but each time we saw each other, I realized that I was not really into combat dating.  It was hard to know that someone I liked was (possibly/more than likely) seeing other woman, when he couldn't see me and weeks went by was it because he was really busy or ??  Who goes weeks without seeing someone when they are "dating"?  Who knew but I was not in the position to have a say either way and I knew it.  When we saw each other, it was truly amazing, but he never asked me to do anything, he never initiated any communication with me, it was always me planning and initiating and feeling like a complete burden on him, so after 5 weeks of not seeing him, I started to get really annoyed, and he started becoming rude. His texts were short and snotty, then I just couldn't continue this, so I told him I was not able to continue to see him.  He said he knew I needed more than he had to offer and he didn't know how to handle that.  I realized that although he was truly amazing, he wasn't the guy for me, and he knew he couldn't be the guy I needed, so in the end we decided we made much better friends.  We text and talk from time to time and I enjoy hearing from him.  I have no regrets meeting him either, he was amazing and he taught me a lot about who I was, what I needed but more importantly what I deserved.  He taught me some about what I liked in men and what I didn't.  Meeting him changed how I saw myself and for that I can never repay him.   

Then there was the couple of guys that I "met" that I either didn't meet face-to-face or that I did and I had no interest in.  The dating scene seemed awful and annoying and like I was a hamster on a wheel, just spinning and spinning and getting absolutely no where.  There were your sex crazed men, the overly confident douche bags, and the ones you have zero interest in.  Then.............

I spotted a profile of a guy with the most amazing smile.  As I read his profile I noticed he had some contradictions so I emailed him and let him know so he could fix them.  We started talking, then texting and the next day we decided to go ahead and meet up and have a beer.  Well that was April 8, 2016 and so far we are still going strong. He is HOT, funny, has a good job, he is a great father, he is easy to talk to, has the most amazing family, he's sincere, honest, loyal, he treats me like a Queen and he goes out of his way to talk and see me.  I feel like I can literally talk to him about anything, and honestly I think that is how it's supposed to be.   

He and I seem to have met at the perfect time in our lives and for whatever reason we just fit.  We laugh, we talk, sometimes we cry but at the end of the day we click.  He gets me, I get him and together we have so much fun.  Things with us seem to be on fast forward and have really seemed that way to both of us since we met.  Who knows what the future will bring or not bring, but I have learned through this whole thing that I will just enjoy each day for the blessings I receive and hope that tomorrow brings even more sunshine and unicorns. 

I guess at the end of the day, I have to feel lucky that I only actually dated two men before I found him, and I didn't have to go years of searching and being hurt and whatever other dating drama before I met the man that seems to be my perfect match.  I have deleted my online profile and if  "Mr. Right now" and I work out, I will be thrilled to say that I will never have to go on another first date again.


Little man is 2 -- Can you believe it???? 

Monday, May 9, 2016

Mother's Day - 2016

This Mother's day was very emotional for me.  I was really missing my mom and having a hard time with not being able to be with her.  However I did find comfort in being invited to spend the day with Brian and his family. 

Trae and Coty came over the night before and spend the night with Brian, Logan and I.  We laughed and just enjoyed spending time together.  On mother's day we woke early and went to Brian's mom's house and did a ton of yard work and planted some flowers for her.  Then after we cleaned up, his mom had this huge spread of amazing food for us all.  We played corn hole and just had a great day.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Change of Command Ceremony

Since I began working for the Navy, I have never met a better leader than Captain Neff.  He was a true inspiration to me and so many.  Not only was he a good leader but he was a great guy/friend.  I could confide in him, tell him what was happening in my life and he never judged, he only offered the best possible advice he had to give. 

He is moving to the Pentagon and he will be truly missed by many.  Brian and I went to the Change of Command ceremony and of course for me it was very emotional as I knew it would be.  Luckily for me, I had Brian there to comfort me and hold my hand while I cried like a baby. 
                                                           Me, Phil and Brian

                                                                              Me and Brian
                                                                    Brian, Me and the Captain