Today it took me over 2 hours to drive into work today - due to a later than usual start, I was thinking about my life. The past, the pain, and years of stress and now?? I got nothing. I have no pain in my life, and I don't have any drama, I literally wake up in the morning and feel lucky. Lucky to be alive, lucky to have the family and friends that I do, lucky to have met the new people in my life now, lucky to be healthy, to have made mostly solid decisions as an adult, lucky to have 3 great boys and a grandson, and although the future is no guarantee, I feel lucky that the possibility of my future and knowing how remarkable it will be, just makes me smile.
I know I keep saying it, but I've never felt such peace and joy. I feel like I am dancing in the rain, making up for lost time and experiencing new things and seeing them with a new set of eyes. To be truly happy, literally makes my face light up and smile. I like the new me, the one who is positive, who sees the good in people, the non-complainer, the girl who can laugh at herself but also for the first time in her life sees and owns her self worth. Life is good!