Friday, December 25, 2015

2015 - Gone

I can say without a doubt, I won't be sad to see this year disappear and become a memory that I rarely remember.  I hope I don't think of it again, I have never been more ready for a year to end, but at the same time, I never want to forget. 

I sit here Christmas Day and reflect on all the things I am thankful for, all the people I am thankful for, the new friends I have met, the old friends I couldn't have lived without and the even older friends I have reconnected with after many years, regardless I am truly blessed.  I've had some rough years for sure but 2015 was up there for all time worst.  However a lot of quiet wonderful things did come out of this year as well.  I can only continue to pray, be the best person I can be every single day, and keep my eyes focused on the future.

I learned a lot this year about about me.  I learned that even though people that know me say I am the strongest person they know, I believe it, I am a really strong person.  I have the ability to live through any storm and come out stronger on the other side.  I may feel sad/empty inside, but I have this uncanny ability to smile and go day to day without anyone ever knowing there is a thing wrong.  Maybe that isn't such a great thing but it is what it is. Then one day I look back and see what I endured and sometimes I am even amazed and think, how did I get through that??

I learned that my childhood friends are amazing.  I've really reconnected with several of them, and I don't know how I would've gotten through this god awful year without them.  How many texts, phone calls, pictures or just a simple hello, got me through some of the worse days I have been through.  My best adult friends were truly amazing too.

I see my future and it is bright, it is full of life and love because I have been blessed.

Tick Tock

Today is my last day "in" the office until the new year.  I am taking 2 weeks off my "real" job but will be doing part time work at Target .  I love that job (so far).  I am sitting here at my desk with an hour and a half left of my day thinking about the holiday and I find myself so excited. 

The only negative this year is Trae and Coty are in California and this is their first Christmas ever away from home.  At the same time they are one step closer to creating a new life for themselves and it's a life they've chosen for themselves. 

It's our first Christmas with a grand baby that is old enough to actually enjoy Christmas.  I am super excited to watch him open the gifts from Mr. Paul and I. 

Logan is older now, his gifts are more expensive but its also his first year "alone" at the house with Mr. Paul and I. 

For the first time in 20 years, Mr. Paul doesn't know about any of his gifts and I know about mine.  That has never been the case.  Mr. Paul always buys me the best most perfect gifts and maybe this year is no exception.  I can say the two gifts I do know about I can't wait to open and actually have.  They are amazing gifts. 

So yes I am sitting at my desk, awaiting 3 PM with a smile on my face.  Ultimately I am happier this year than I have truly ever been.  I love the family I chose for myself and that chose me.  Happy Holiday's!! 

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Wreaths across America - 2015

Mr. Paul and Logan participated in  an amazing effort December 12, 2015.  They had the privilege to volunteer and place wreaths on all the graves at Arlington National Cemetery, in Virginia.  I am so proud of them both. Good Job!

Thursday, December 3, 2015

Thanksgiving - 2015

Thanksgiving 2015 - Missing Trae and Coty but otherwise PERFECT!!!!!

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Transformation update

Officially down 35 pounds.  I have never been happier and I have never felt better about who I am and where I am going.   Life is good!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Navy vs Tulane

Logan and I went to the Navy vs Tulane game today it was so fun.  Navy won 31- 14

Sunday, October 11, 2015



Yesterday I went to a BBQ with some friends I haven't had the pleasure of spending time with in a long time.  It was great fun.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Transformation update

August 20, 2015 I wrote a transformation blog ( where I committed to losing 50 pounds by December.  At the time of my entry I had lost 17 pounds, as of today I have lost 25 pounds.  I am half way to my goal and feel wonderful.  I have totally given up soda (for me that is HUGE) and I walk every single day at least 5 miles (AGAIN a HUGE thing for me since I have always hated working out).  I actually get annoyed if something happens and I am not able to go on my daily walk.  Hopefully you can see a change in my current photo.

Down 25 - 25 to go

Saturday, September 26, 2015


The hardest thing to do is pray for people who hurt you, people that lie, cheat, steal, and hurt you and your family with every word from their mouth.  Yet the bible says we must pray for them, so I will.

Travis Alvar Thompson

July 2, 1969 - September 23, 2015

I've known Travis since the first grade.  We grew up together, we fought, we loved each other, we were best friends.  We had a song, our song, I will never forget.  We lost Travis on September 23, 2015 to suicide.  He fought many demons and in the end they won as demons usually do, but he will live on in our memories and in all the people that his life touched.  

I am sorry we couldn't save you, life for Travis was painful, I pray my God is merciful and will open the gates of heaven and give him peace.  

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Nationals vs Mets

Logan and I went with some friends to the Washington Nationals vs the New York Met's on Wednesday  It was a lot of fun and I've spent a lot of time trying to make memories.

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Good Luck

My older boys are moving to LA, California.  Leaving today.  I will miss you.

Thursday, August 20, 2015


I am determined to lose 50 pounds by December.  I have already lost 17 and will continue to plug along with this goal.  I have more motivation than I have ever had.  The above pictures were just taken within the past few days.  I will post an update each month on the 20th to stay consistent.  Wish me luck.

Saturday, August 15, 2015

I am special today

Today I was surprised by yet another delivery from a very dear friend.  He knows who he is and I love them.  I actually have only received flowers one time before and that was from my friend Julie right after my surgery.  I have never received flowers from a man before and I have to say it was truly amazing.  Thank you.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Student Driver Alert

Today I taught Logan how to drive.  I decided with everything that has been going on, it was time for a little fun.  So even though he didn't want to, I told him to buckle up and lets go.  Because we live on a 200 acre farm there is a big enough dirt road for him to learn on.  I let him drive once around and then we ran to town.  When we got back he wanted to go again.  Funny how a kid who didn't want to even drive today wanted to go back out.  Sometimes as a mother we do know best.  Today was the beginning of many nightmares for me with a new driver.  Oh well made his day and therefore made mine.