Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Valentine's Day - 2018

I've lived through 48 Valentine's Days.  I've been in love for some and heartbroken for others.  I think we all have.  Who would we be if we hadn't loved and lost?

It's been years since I felt like I was truly blessed, or since I felt like another person actually loved me as much as I loved them.  Charles loves me for me, not for who he wants me to be, but he loves me for me as I am 100%.  He doesn't want me to change, he doesn't wish for me to be anyone but me, he loves me today for who I am, what I am, unconditionally. 

For the first time in my entire life, I don't want for anything.  I don't wish something about my life was different, or I could change something.  I have everything I could ever want, I have no real stress, I live fairly worry free and I am loved beyond comprehension.  I smile all the time, I laugh, I feel safe, I know no matter what happens, Charles is by my side, and even holding me up if he needs to.  He is my soul mate, he is Perfect!

I can't even describe how it feels.  How even when I look in the mirror and I feel blah, I still feel like he looks at me like I am the most beautiful woman in the world.  When I look in his eyes and I see him looking back at me, I can only smile, my heart is happy. 

I don't know what I have done in my life to deserve this, but I swear he's a angel, sent to me, and I plan to stay here with him forever!  Happy Valentines Day to me for I am the luckiest girl in the world. 

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Punta Cana - Dominican Republic

Can you say Adventure!  Charles and I went to the DR and stayed at An all inclusive resort called Dreams of Palm Beach. It was absolutely amazing.

Starts out we flew 1st class which in case you’ve never done it let me tell you it’s the absolute greatest.  I felt like I could feel my heart smiling. 

First glance at Punta Cana
Once we arrived it was sunny, windy, free drinks, free food anywhere at the resort, adult only pools, shopping, palm trees, beach for miles, and well just pure peace.  We had a 2.5 hour couples massage, which was so incredibly relaxing and the next day I got a pedicure.  We went to the casino every night and played black jack.  5 nights and 6 days never went by so quickly.  We had breakfast in bed one morning and we had a romantic dinner for 2 served to us on the beach during sunset. 

2018 is starting out right.


I mean look at that smile, he's adorable

Blue Hawaii and my drink of choice this trip

Random Selfie

Java is always necessary, even in paradise

Where my feet should always be

bikini's in January - that's what I am talking about

Gorgeous sky

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Reflecting on 2017

2017 started out rough, I remember New Years Day 2017 like it was yesterday; thinking that my life sucked,  thinking how did I get here, will I ever be happy again, blah blah. PATHETIC!

No one said life was easy.  In case you fell asleep while reading this blog you should know my life has been anything but easy.  Of course I have had my share of good times, even great from time but for the most part my adult life has always been hard, always stressful and mostly bad.  I learned a long time ago to smile and find the good in everything if I could.  Don't let the bad define me.
The heartbreak I was feeling at the start of 2017 was loss of love, loss of his family, loss of his friends whom I thought also were mine, etc.  When I relationship ends so does all the parts included in that relationship.  I was miserable, once again hiding behind a fake smile. 

The I started living again.  About April, I decided to stop thinking about what I had lost and start focusing on what I still had.  I met some amazing folks, no one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with but amazing none the less. 

I looked up, and there he was.  This charming, kind, amazing guy.  He is everything I always wanted, everything I always dreamed of, everything  I never thought I would ever have.  Don't get me wrong, I don't have to be with a man to be happy, but being with a man who adores you, doesn't suck either.  I've never been with a man who treats me the way he does, that makes me feel the way he does and who accepts me for who I am and not who he wants me to be. 

I feel fortunate to have him but the change is that he feels lucky to have me.  He spoils the crap out of me and honestly it's quite nice but I also spoil him. I don't have to worry about anything with Charles, he has my back, he ensures my safety, he has my best interest at hand and he doesn't have it in him to hurt me.

We each bring things to the table the other one doesn't have, which as a couple balances out.  We've both been hurt, we both have a past but our future together is so exciting.  

I'm ending 2017 on a positive note, in a positive place and surrounded by positive people.  I am every bit excited about 2018 and the adventures that Charles and I will experience together.

YOLO and I am living.  For the first time in my entire life my life is rainbows, unicorns and magic!

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Niagra Falls, Ontario Canada

Charles and I went to Niagara Falls for 5 wonderful days.  I had never been to Canada, so we stayed in Ontario, Canada with a view of the falls from the hotel.  If you've never seen the falls, you simply can't even imagine how awesome they are.  You can feel the mist from the falls from football fields away.  We walked to the casino and he taught me how to play black jack, he and I played black jack side by side for hours for three days.
Everyday we would sleep in, each breakfast, he would nap and I would go to the hotel gym and then we would go to lunch and then the casino and/or shopping.  He bought me 6 Pandora beads for my bracelet and one of them is exclusive to that hotel.
I can't wait for our next adventure. 

Life is rainbows and unicorns

Love him

Look at that rainbow

Welcome to Canada

Night cap at the hotel bar

He hates his picture taken but he is going to be a pro soon.  I love my pictures

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we are just to cute